Backing-up writing
I backed up a all of my writing earlier today, then i did more and made a bunch of changes to my writings.
So, Why did I back it all up? When should I back it all up again?
keep my eye on the goal
I can’t seem to get out of the rat race while looking thorugh a one inch window…. Then I relised something. That little window is great when I am scared, and the whole world seems way too big for me.
But, I have forgotten to look keep my eyes on the goal. I looked away, and can’t keep on track now. Sure, all i can see is that one little bit of stuff, but when that little bit of stuff is “I am tired, I don’t fell like it” then, I have to keep my eye on the big stuff, and see the beauty that i will become, instead of tring to make every little detail perfect sepreatly, then having to change them, why not make them all at the same time???
no more one inch window when I start to get overwelemed, but instead, “My Voice, My choice.” It’s MY choice. It’s MINE, all Mine. Everything that i do, is my choice. thus, i refuse to give up, and will foreve walk with my head heald high, and my back straight, not looking down, and even when i stumble, I will keep my eye on the goal.
its an adventure
yes, thats it. its dangrous, and scarry, and one never knows what is going to happen next. chis is not a new idea to me. it all started when I was a little girl living with my grand momther. I lived with her for a while when I was little. when getting in the car with her, one never knew where one would end up. she always said “its an adventure” just now, i got a letter, where wrote that again.
now, I have nothing to fear, becouse its an adventure.
frog pad
Wow. Today went by fast. I was up and out early. Then worked 8 hrs. got home to find my frog pad had arrived. (post here) Spent a while learning how to use it. I am already starting to learn where the keys are. It is a wonderful challenge. The one handed nature of it allows for me to drink water or talk on the phone while typing. So far I love it.
trashed
I trashed a story I had been working on for a few years. It had become so large and overpowering that It was parallelizing me. But, now, it’s all gone. Every file of it deleted, every printed page of it, burnt.
I also delegated my “dear” notebook, and it’s high time that I started another one.
I fell so free, now that it’s gone.
Refreshed
I am felling 100 percent today. That hasn’t happened in a while. It started out with a good nights sleep filled with pleasant dreams. Then a conversation with a friend, a shower, and a walk with the dog. Then, I stretched and got all relaxed. It’s been one good day.
today I did
today was a good day, and I got alot done.
I got a new collar made out of leather for my Millie, my dog. I also ordored her a new tag. it’s heart shaped, like all the one’s she’s had. When I first got her, I skipped getting a nice collar and just got the cheepest one that I could. It’s nice to see Her with that one. Then, she got a trip to the dog park, just the two of us. She had fun till she started favoring her hind leg, and I took her home. I will be takeing her to the vet if it gets worse, (or whenI get out of school).
I also rewrote my reseme. I hope it’s a lot better, at least I think that It is. now I just need to type it. (might explain why i am blogging instead of writing that… I *hate* typeing up what I’ve written, but it’s the best way i can come up with.)
I am also waiting for my frog pad to get here. I finaly broke down and ordored the one handed keyboard. It’s so that I can type with only my right hand. There is a left handed and a write handed version, and it should only take 10 hours to get up to a 40 wmp typeing speed. If I could get a 60 words per minite with it I would be happy. But, I am going to push for 100.
found the right cloths…l finlay.
I’ve found the right cloths. it’s nice suit. I’ve also got the pants to match. when I look in the mirror, with that on, I smile. It’s me, the real me. and I like what I see. It’s amazing what the right cloths can do for a person. I am so ready now, to go out and apply. Just one problem: my resemue. It still needs some work. So, I am checking out the paper, and tailering my resemue to the job that i am applying for. If I can’t stand out by my writing, no amout of coths will make me stand out.
self immage
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I found this post about the “beautiful woman project” and found it intresting. I am glad that someone out there is makeing saying that there *is* no set standard version of beauty. that’s a good thing.
I was also thinking about how I need to go shopping. I still haven’t gotten new clothing to do a job hunt in. I just hate shopping so much. It’s so hard to find the right thing, that fits me well and looks good.
but, Kay is going to help me. She’s my best friend from high school, and I love her to death. She is one of the most upstanding people that I know. I might link to her blog, if that’s ok with her.
Time
I’ve noticed that haveing Time is a dangrous things. even if there are things to be done with that time. I’ve had a few hours to my self over the past few days, as well as some time on the train. My writing has not been forth comming and flowing as much as I would have liked. I seem to be too consurned with figuring out who I am now so that I will be able to look back and see where I had been. then getting any thing of great uses done.
I know… I need to get them both done, but I have to keep my writing at the for frount of my mind, it has to be the most important thing for the simple reason that it is the first thing I think about when I wake up and last thing that I think about when I go to bed, and offten, I kick my self for not have done it, or not haveing done it well enough, or just haveing gotten distracted and not doing it.
I just need to figure out what is stoping me, and get over it. It’s a hard thing to do, But, if YOU happen to see me *not* writing, or *not* looking for a new job, or figuring out my goals, please tell me to get back to getting it done.
