self immage

Your Body Image is 16% Unhealthy, 84% Healthy

You have a great body image. You know that no one looks perfect, and you’re happy the way you are. Also, you don’t judge other people on their looks… and it helps them feel better about their own bodies!

How’s Your Body Image?

 

 

I found this post about the “beautiful woman project” and found it intresting. I am glad that someone out there is makeing saying that there *is* no set standard version of beauty. that’s a good thing.

I was also thinking about how I need to go shopping. I still haven’t gotten new clothing to do a job hunt in. I just hate shopping so much. It’s so hard to find the right thing, that fits me well and looks good.

but, Kay is going to help me. She’s my best friend from high school, and I love her to death. She is one of the most upstanding people that I know. I might link to her blog, if that’s ok with her.

Time

I’ve noticed that haveing Time is a dangrous things. even if there are things to be done with that time.  I’ve had a few hours to my self over the past few days, as well as some time on the train.  My writing has not been forth comming and flowing as much as I would have liked. I seem to be too consurned with figuring out who I am now so that I will be able to look back and see where I had been. then getting any thing of great uses done.
I know… I need to get them both done, but I have to keep my writing at the for frount of my mind, it has to be the most important thing for the simple reason that it is the first thing I think about when I wake up and last thing that I think about when I go to bed, and offten, I kick my self for not have done it, or not haveing done it well enough, or just haveing gotten distracted and not doing it.
I just need to figure out what is stoping me, and get over it. It’s a hard thing to do, But, if YOU happen to see me *not* writing, or *not*  looking for a new job, or  figuring out my goals, please tell me to get back to getting it done.

self evaluation part two

lets see now:

my eyes: they are a green blue. I wanted it to be green, and icy green that stands out, and is near unforgetable. I’ve seen it before, and while I don’t like it so much on other people, I would love it on me. It may be worth getting contact lenses, but there will still be the undelying blue of it. and then, they won’t be mine. 

I am a floor setter.  I like to sit on the floor, crosse legged.  I even like to sit on a bed, or on an automen(SP), cross legged. when I was little, I liked to sit on a chair, all primand propper like, but now, the floor seems more natural. 

self evaluation part one

I was talking with a friend a while ago. He is a very wise man. His words are running through my head as I write this draft on a buss headed towards my favorate little excape.   This friend gave me lots of advice, and it’s normaly good, and always leaves me felling better but modivated or dissatfied with where I am. and that’s a good thing becouse being disssatsfied is the first step to takeing action.

Well, over the course of our converstation, I was getting glimces of how he sees me.  I see it in the way that he treates me. like I am important, always.  and well, it’s hard to believe that about my self sometimes, especialy when my dad dosn’t always treat me like I am, and my grandmomther always has something that I am not doing it quite right.

so, I asked him how I could see my self like others do.  His answer was simple. self evaluation.   My answer to that was, that’s not easy.  It is hard to know who I am.  It’s hard to see both sides of my self.  So, He told me to start simple, with the basics:
my hair color: a beautiful redish brown. whent he sun fall on it the red stand out, and it nearly glows.  I just want to fall into that coperish amber color.   Once I got it highlighted at the insinstance of my dad, who thinks that it would look better lighter.  I hated it. It just did not fell quite right. If I died it again, it would be jet black. But, mostly It looks wonderful with my sking the way that it is.

My Skin:
A soft white. It is beautiful. Nice and lovely.  but the pours on my nose are a huge, and my skin is too red. and in places it’s dry. it also burns too easly.  yet, it bruning just lets me use sunscrean to keep it looking nice and light. It’s good that way.

more later. I don’t know how much of this I will end up posting.

The Green Eye

my Dad  took a digital Pic of me. I was messing around one day, and descided to crop it, and trun it green.  It is my eye, and green is my favorate color.  I am always looking, watching, learning.

It’s a wonderful reminder that my Dad has done some thing for me.

LA again

I am going to LA again. I am not so sure that It’s a good idea.  I would really like to pour my self into my writing, and into getting me a new job. I also don’t need to be spending the money.  But,  I want to go see my friends. again.

Cloths shopping.

In the hunt for a job, I have found that new cloths are necessary. I normally have well fitting in season cloths. They may be well out of style, but they fit me, and I like them.

But, I’ve weight. I don’t have any work appropate shirts and such for this weather, let alone something to be searching for work in. So, I am going to slowly be buying more cloths.

Today, I am looking for a skirt and shirt to go with. I don’t know if I will be loosing any more weight, so I want to buy very little in the way of clothing, at least until I have a job where I can ware said cloths to. It’s not that I am a recluse. I just spend a lot of time writing.

But, I didn’t find the shirt and skirt. But, i found shoes that will go with a skirt and shirt I’ve already got. They fit, but are almost too big, so I would not buy them.

Jobs and High School education

I am currently doing a job that requires no high school education. I can’t seem to get one that does.. are there even any out there that don’t require experence? in that field?

I desperatly need to get out of my job, and quiting this year to susport my self on pomes alone is not going to happen. It’s not that lucutrive.   I know that something will come through, but, it just seems that there is no advantage in haveing one.

whoot

I can’t believe that I typed that…. But, it kind of fits. I sent off some submissions today. the first ones on my quest to pay my bills with my writing. I finly pushes passed the “get it orgonized first” to “just get it done” mode.   Now,  I can’t wait to hear from them. It might take a few months to get it… but if they want one, I would get 10 dollars and some other stuff (like a copy of the mag, and a subscripiton.)

What I’ve been up to today:

My room… is full of piles of stuff that needs to be taken care of.

I don’t even have them all listed in my to do list yet. But, that’s ok because most will take more time to deal with then it would take to enter into my to do list.

But, today, I cleared out my closet. Now it’s ready to be stuffed with junk again. But, for the present moment, I am enjoying it being nice and clean.

I am working on creating getting rid of the clutter right now, because it’s too detracting me and I am finding it hard to focus. Hopefully the clean closet, and soon to be clean room will allow me great mental energy to organize the information that I’ve got on Poetry markets, as well as let me get a few new poems started.

I also redid my electrical cords for my desk. Instead of using a power strip like i had done before (that was a mess… a real pain.) i got some of them ones that just plug into the outlet, with 3 places to plug into. That leave me with everything plunged in, plus one extra spot, so i can plug in my battery charger when I am using it.